Well hello world..
im here again.. since im so fcukin bored at home, i've decided to blog..
nothing much to do here..
i soo wanna work.. i cant rot everyday at home with nothing to do..
most probably i'll be lookin for a job tomorrow..
moga-moga rezeki ader besok k? insyallah.. amin..
=)
boyfie still not awake yet i guess since i've been flooding his cellphone with messages and he didnt reply to any of it..
guess i'll have to waid a lil bit longer.. i think i wanna be in bed early tonight..
thought of goin for a jog, but it's okay since i dont haf a jogging partner..
man i wish i have a threadmill at home..
all my friends are busy..
im bored, seriously im bored..
it's been a while now i didnt step to town.. just so u know, haha. no kachings..
whatever it is, doa2kan aku dpt keje besok k??
working as wad? idk yet.. but we'll see how lar..
gosh..
my mind are totally blank right now, i could hardly think..
at times, when i was reminiscing about the past, i would laugh my ass out..
because 2008, there's alot of drama goin on..
nobody knows how hurt i am deep inside..
soon, sissie gonna get engaged.. im gonna be alone.. with no one to talk to at night..
how i wish i could stay this way forever..
wow, everyone grows up pretty fast, plus the clock is ticking really2 fast..
i wanna be a better person now..
i know deep inside mama's heart, she wants the best for her daughter..
but some things just keep holding me back..
because daddy is financially unstable for now..
so i cant go back to school for the time being..
to make it easy, i'll try to find my own money.. and at the same time, mommy will get some money so she could spend it for her daily use..
sometimes i wonder, will i be a good daughter??
will i be a good wife?
will i be a good mother someday??
i don't know..
this is the only place i could pour out my feelings..
whenever i think of this, it would definitely bring tears to my eyes, cause i couldt see wad's coming ahead..
i would day-dream all day, and all night..
like i said, nobody will know wad's inside my heart..
even mom and dad wouldnt know...
im the type who keeps secrets about everything.. secretive person i should say..
i just want my old life back..
i wanna be the old khilla i used to be...
someone who's jovial.. understanding.. fun to be around with.. nothing to worry about..
and i cant control my temper..
why now??
i just want a friend, someone whom i can share secrets with, someone who i can talk to..
well, as time goes by, apperently, things changed for good..
i just cant figure it out..
maybe im just depressed..
this situation im in, nobody will know..
that's all i have to said..
goodbye..