It's already 2.10am in the morning, sissie is snoring away, but me, still wide awake, chatting wif dearest adek wany..
thank god she's here to accompany me..
anyways,i've something to pour in here..
despite seeing me, in a happy mood, getting everything i wanted..
but deep down inside me, u may not know wad's there..
been thinking about life lately..
past, present and wad's in store for me in future..
gosh, i really2 need guidance...
if only i could turn back the time, i think i would be the happiest woman on earth..
there's alot of things that's undone, needs to be done..
i know that there's no such things as 'perfect' in this world..
but im really2 trying my best to become the 'perfect' girl you see..
you may see me as a bad girl, but deep down inside me, i wanna be the lil girl your mama love..
who stays at home, finish almost all the house chores, make her happy, make her proud..
but why cant i be one??
typical, life, there's always something..
well i just need someone to talk to..
i mean, how would you feel if you dont have any blessings in your relationship, but you still love you love dearly??
as for me, if there's no blessings, wad for going strong together?
obviously i wont be at ease..
i need right directions!
i mean, is there any invention; time machine where i could fast forward the time, and see wad i would do, and if i did any mistakes, of course i wanna change it to the correct way..
dont tell me you dont do any mistakes in your life, do you?
i did mine, so im trying to learn from my mistakes..
it aint easy living in a world like this..
u did wrong, u mend it the correct way, you u did nothing wrong, continue larrr wif wad you're doing..
i would love to see mom, really2 proud of me one day..
one fine day mama..
and as for the bf, something's not right..
there's a lil bit of changes goin on and i jux cant seem to figure it out jux this soon..
OMG! sacrifises are made.. now you should sacrifise too..
man i hate living in world wif so many challengers...
now im here feeling all sad and blue..
guess i gtg nw..
lil bit more thinking to do, and im off to bed..
bye ya'll.