Hello again everyone..
i woke up today, with a very2 sad face, knowing that everything's gonna be okay..
but sadly, it's not..
im thinking about finding a job over at the east side..
but despite of all the personal problem plus, i admit! I'VE FINANCIAL CRISIS right now..
blardy-arse! how can i tolerate, finding jobs without having any ka-chings? right?
gosh!
i can't take it anymore.. i need a break from all of these.. really!
from people forcing me to go back to school and force me to even look for a job, haprak!
how am i supposed to do so people??
if only u guys were in my shoes, then probably you will understand..
so sorry wany i couldnt make it to meet u today..
even if i meet u, i wouldnt be the same khilla u used to know..
im not the jokin type, the ones who used to be bubbly, cheerful etc before..
that was all then, maybe i need a break..
TO EVERYONE, IM SORRY, I CANT BE PERFECT..
well because right now, right here.. im feeling these way..
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think
I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
And please people, understand my situation..
I tend to cry when i started thinking about it..
just like how i did, while i was cooking in the kitchen..
guess everyting's gonna be back in place when i was gone for good..
bye